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I stress myself trying to keep the balance that I want. Maybe I was looking towards the “future” too much that I haven’t given the present enough attention. Maybe I’m not working as hard as I should be (or that I am working too much). Maybe because I try to grasp things only with idealism, and that now I end up flailing. Maybe there are things that I chose to forget that needs closure first. Or maybe I’m just being to hard on myself, trying to be in three places at the same time, being a different person as who the moment requires. I am talking about my life, and how it’s affected. By them, by this and by that.
I need to lose the balance and climb a ladder instead. One step at a time, one thing after the other. I exactly know what to do and when to do it. All is just a phase.
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April 3 marked my first year at US Auto Parts. Time went so fast. It’s as if it was just yesterday when then clean-cut Tj arrived at the company doorsteps.
Back then the office looked like a security agency. The walls of the 6th floor were wobbly enough that if punched, the cracked wood would reveal a striving termite metropolis. Down at the first floor where my department is, things were like the twilight zone. Sometimes the air from the a/c would freeze you to death, sometimes it burns your scalp. Fume from the comfort room can be so toxic that the last visitor would not be able to make it back to his/her seat. There were only a few employees to accord to. Some of them have already gone, some remained.
A lot of things has changed since then.
The 6th floor pantry now houses our NBA 2K8 Xbox wars which are waged in front of Samsung Plasma Screen. I’m pretty sure there are no more termites around, ultra-modern furniture is quite a tough chew. The wind doesn’t blow four seasons anymore, only but a comfortable atmosphere weathers us. US Auto Parts is now a well respected in-house BPO company. And perhaps the biggest change that happened, our department expanded. New faces were welcomed, new bonds were formed.
I am a witness to year that has passed. If I look at my co-worker’s faces right now, I can see the changes that has happened to them. It’s all great, but you know what? Some of them haven’t changed a bit! These people are exactly the same the way they were twelve months ago. For better or for worse, I don’t care. Sometimes what matters is that they’re here, and that we can turn to them for being exactly who you accepted them to be, at work and in person.
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Back then you were reading Half the World Away, now it’s Life and Times. Have I changed? If someone has an answer, please don’t bother to tell. May or may not, all that matters is that we’re here. For better or for worse, all that matters is that there’s always another year. There is growth for sure, always, as time goes by.
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I’m becoming really, really ambitious these days. Well come to think of it, I’ve always been one.
First there’s the movie blog. An effort that’s gonna be spearheaded by me, along with the help of trusted friends. I decided it’s going to be a hip, modern approach to cinema critique, more of movie appreciation and not film snob. But at the same time, I want readers to actually regard my views and opinions as authoritative. Someone people would find as a significant figure, probably much like Roger Ebert. If I say that a particular movie sucks, then that movies sucks.
Secondly, the SEO Society. See there’s not a lot of SEO’s here in the country. And incidentally, only a handful know who’s who. There is the SEO forum, but honestly, I’m not that friendly enough to PM everyone and say hi or even join the group discussions. So I’m gonna create a blog by SEO’s. A real concrete web space that brings the latest news, trends, tips and everything under the Search Engine sun. It’s gonna be initiated by selected SEO’s in the PI, then if everything goes alright, then the network grows.
So there, a lot of work ahead. I still prioritize my day job of course, making my beloved major corporate site battle it out with competitors and rank higher. But being restless, that ain’t enough. There’s got to be something well within my capabilities that I could utilize and leave a great impression. Something more than what I do day in and day out. Something more out of this career. Hustle and tussle, I gots to get it. I know that it’s definitely hard and that I have to work/slave for all these that I want. But thinking of it, I already have a foot forward. Right now, I have ambition.
