i dream of surf

People dream the most outlandish, surreal, or to simply put it, weird things. Yeah, I know that. But what the fuck, I have this recurring dream that I find really non-sensical. At first it was kinda amusing you know, but dreaming the same dream and variations of it for over two years now is in no way a pleasant experience during the only time that I seem to be a normal person, sleep. Calling the Dream doctor, something’s wrong with my freaking subconscious.

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them good souls

I am aware most of the time. I am aware that I’m selfish. I am aware that I take people for granted. I am aware than I am indifferent. I am aware that I alienate people and family. I am aware that I do all these on purpose. But no, I am not aware that I was very wrong. I was very wrong.

There is a lot that I need to explain, but see I don’t talk about it. Reaching out is not an appealing thought. But to all friends and co-workers that may read this, I say thank you and I owe you guys. You are all good people. Pure and true. I wish I could find myself again and be the old me. I swear you’d like me better. This post is for you guys.

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