I stress myself trying to keep the balance that I want. Maybe I was looking towards the “future” too much that I haven’t given the present enough attention. Maybe I’m not working as hard as I should be (or that I am working too much). Maybe because I try to grasp things only with idealism, and that now I end up flailing. Maybe there are things that I chose to forget that needs closure first. Or maybe I’m just being to hard on myself, trying to be in three places at the same time, being a different person as who the moment requires. I am talking about my life, and how it’s affected. By them, by this and by that.
I need to lose the balance and climb a ladder instead. One step at a time, one thing after the other. I exactly know what to do and when to do it. All is just a phase.
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